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Fear is a very powerful tool. It is one that can make you question every decision that you have made and paralyzes you from taking further steps in the direction you would want. As companies began to trust me with review material, either because they were allowed a certain number of copies for “indie” websites, saw my potential as a powerhouse later in the future, or simply wanted an alternative source of publicity, I was given opportunity after opportunity to show my stuff. As I began to get more-and-more material, I honestly began to question if I was “worthy” to be undertaking this type of work. Was I honestly knowledgeable enough in gaming and writing to be doing this? Was I honestly skilled enough to gather a fan base? Hardly anyone actually comments on my work, so what if the company sees me as a wasted resource and begins to blacklist me? I had so many thoughts from absolutely nothing that I had no idea what I needed to do.
Something else that gets me is also laziness. While I love to stand back and look at my work after it has been published and really love when people share it, retweet it, or debate about my articles…I really need to “get going” to start it all up. For me, it is like exercising, I am fine while I am in the midst of doing it but getting the motivation to actually begin proves to be the most challenging part about it. A lot of my time was taken up by senseless browsing of the internet and gaming, I did not put nearly enough time into my other hobbies that are necessary for what I want (writing, drawing, and anime watching). I feel like I am losing a piece of myself and I refuse to let it go down without a fight.
This update is my promise to myself, as well as you fans of RoKtheReaper.com, that I will be doing more of what I should be doing. Giving you the very best news, reviews, interviews, and editorials pertaining to anime, gaming, and manga. This will be happening first and foremost before most other things, and I will be devoting a lot of my time to my Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, and Tumblr accounts.
I will like to say thank you for those who stuck around during my time of absence and to anyone that took the time to read this post despite life and its busy scheduling. Arigatou Gosaimasu! Talk to you soon!